Wanning Friendships?

I seem to have lost a large number of my friends... Nobody will talk to me it seems. Maybe everyone is just super busy, but I can't help but get the feeling that people are avoiding and ignoring me.

I don't understand, I thought I was still fun, I thought I was still me... I just... I don't know what I did or didn't do...

I feel so lost and so hated.

I want to die.

Punkrawk4all's darkside uncovered at 10:32 PM 1 comments

Wacom update

Well, I poked my head into the Micro Store at the U to check on the shipping date for my Wacom tablet. It shipped out of the supplier yesterday, which means it should be at the U on Friday (So sayeth the dude at the counter). I hope that it comes in sooner rather than later! I can't wait! ^_^

Punkrawk4all's darkside uncovered at 8:41 PM 0 comments

Relationship Update

I noticed today that there is a comment on a post from a few days ago asking if James and I are doing alright. Well, the truth of the matter is, James has been avoiding me for the better part of a month now. I've seen him once recently and we played on the Wii and all that, but that's it. He's not on MSN, he doesn't call etc. I don't call him either, out of respect for his not wanting to be around me or whatever, and it's frankly starting to annoy me.

I think I'm pretty patient when it comes to relationships, I also think I'm pretty forgiving as well. I mean, guys can forget Valentines Day or my Birthday and I don't dump them on the spot; that seems pretty nice to me. But I do have limits. I think I'm getting close to one of those limits right now. I am willing to take a lot of crap, but this is getting stupid.

Anyway, I can't say there has been progress and I'm rather bitter about it all. The worst part is though, I'm afraid I might be losing my best friend.

Punkrawk4all's darkside uncovered at 2:22 PM 2 comments

Everyone has had, or will have a game like this...

This just makes me happy, desipte all the shit.

Punkrawk4all's darkside uncovered at 11:13 PM 0 comments

Dear God... why....

My brain is trying to escape through my forehead it seems. I am in a stupid amount of pain at the moment and trying to focus on my stupid Sociology class, what with finals coming up and all, but I just can't. Which is lame because I came just for this class today (was sick this morning, don't ask, not pretty). On top of that I'm exhausted for some reason. I got extra sleep, and was even in bed at a reasonable time last night! I just can't seem to make things work out in my favor.

Well, in addition to this, I have a semester end test tommorow, my last class thing for the semester. It's in my film class and is just a mini essay thing, that I can prep in advance pretty well, so I'm not worried too much, but I do need to be able to prepare for it tonight. I just hope I can get myself feeling well enough to do so. I know I'm gonna take a long drink of cold water when class gets out, hopefully that will make me feel better. When I get home, I think I'm gonna have to go back to bed for a little bit before I start to study. At least I have a long break tommorow before this test to review anything I prepare tonight, so it's not all a loss.

Anyway, I have a lot of unpleasent musings I could post, but I'll spare you all. See you later.

Punkrawk4all's darkside uncovered at 1:26 PM 0 comments

Wonderful world of WACOM

That's right, I finally cave and ordered a Wacom tablet. I've got a Graphire4 6x8 in silver coming my way via the U of C store in a couple days here. It'll be pretty nice to finally have one to do all my fiddleing around on. I've decided that I should just skip the step where I take what I've drawn on paper and digitize it, and instead just draw riht into the computer. Besides, the mirror image and cut/paste features are going to be super handy anyway.

*Yawn* I'm super tired, and didn't sleep well at all, even my nap in the DC wasn't restful. I think I'll spend lots of time napping tonight and dreaming of my Wacom. :p

I'm in my film class right now, and the prof is about to tell us what will be on the test on Wed. Which will dictate what I will be doing for studying for the next couple days. Not that it will be hard.

Anyway, I'm just gonna mess around with more art stuff.

Punkrawk4all's darkside uncovered at 3:01 PM 1 comments

The blues?

I am really depressed for some reason this weekend. *yawns* I'm not sure what's causing it all but whatever it is, I hope it goes away soon. I can't focus or do anything, or even formulate full sentances. I can't even focus on games or draw. I'm trying to think of what else to write. *yawns* I feel just... crappy. Very isolated and just.. I can't even think of words. I'm trying to keep myself amused and upbeat but it's not working. Ragnorok Online can't even make me feel good. Same with Civ 4. Ugg... Anyway. I'm off.

Punkrawk4all's darkside uncovered at 9:14 PM 0 comments